The following is an old version of my bio, significantly out of date as of fall 2014:
Patron Saint of Frazzled Choir Directors, Organs..., and Dazzling Self-Awareness -- helenangel
The best way to find out about me is to friend me and then read my journal.
I'm a church organist/choir director, an accompanist, and a piano teacher, but temporarily not very active in any of those activities, after a move from Canada to the US. I received my green card on Christmas Eve 2009. When I started this journal, I also worked in a Tim Hortons (hence the cafe- in cafemusique).
One version of this bio was created as the year 2005 began, and I was finding that I was better able to handle situations that would previously have sent me into depression and/or panic. I also said that I was looking forward to continuing to grow into the person I'm meant to be.
A year later, I thought far more of that growth has taken place than I expected to be possible in such a short time. I said then,
That doesn't mean that I don't get impatient with myself, though. I still have unrealistic expectations that I need to weed out. But for the most part, I have finally begun to really like myself, and feel confident standing on my own two feet, and respecting myself.
There are still changes I'd like to make in my life, but there's less urgency. As I've stated a few times "I used to want to change things so that I would like myself. Now, I want to change things because I like myself." Even when I first said it, I don't think I realised how big a shift that was.
If I could sum up how I think of myself: I'm not perfect, but I'm trying to be the best person I can be, and to do the best work I can at whatever I set my mind to.
I think it worked. Since then, I found my beloved wife, who I married in early 2009. I've moved to a different country and am continuing to accept that I am not perfect. (gasp!) I know! Such a shocker! I'm certainly happier than I was for a long time!